Hey Guys

I'm sitting here and hear POPgasm at the 20th time. But I'm sick. I've got an hardcore-headache. And because of this, is my day not very ''sunny''. I need a sunny day and holiday again. I had one year no holidays! But in summer I go to finland. I'm really happy to stay one week in my favourite country. I hope that I could relax there a little bit. In switzerland it's a little bit to busy for me. And I'm a student somewhere in the middle of nowhere. I'm in a school faraway from my home and my family. When I go into my holidays, I could see them longer then just for one or two days. Because then I've got seven weeks free!

In my school I have music. That's totally cool. I make an recidal about Johan Christian Julius Sibelius. I love his music. Two years ago I were in a Finlandiaconcert. It was wunderful! I now I'm a ''Spiesser''. But for me is classic music very important. Cause when I was younger I played the violine. My teacher said that I'm a musicgenius. Today I'm playing a little bit guitarre... I'm the worst guitarre player in these univers;) No, it's sounds sometimes really cool. But only sometimes. I'd like to play some one in a band. Because I'm writing some timmes very good songs. I'm writing ''Schlager''. German Schlager. But sometimes I'm writing also lovesongs.

Hey my darling
look at me
you and me
could be so free
Hey come on...

This was the beginning of my famoust song. More than ten people now it. I knew some one a freak. Than I sang my song. And after that he called me sometimes with darling. But it's more than a year ago. But at that time he and a friend of him made the notes with my melody. It was an amazing day. Cause some guys have seen my talent. That's really cool.

Today I'd like to play guitarre. But I forgot it at home. In the Ghetto. I could write an song about my town.

Somewere, somewere in the Ghetto
there are dreams
sweet dreams
dreams of freedom and happiness
but there is no hope
there is just an black wall
in my hardcore ghetto
in the ghetto is no hope...

This could be me One-Hit-Wonder-Reason. No, it's just to sing it at the trainstation and earn some money. It's not to hear and think that it could be good. It's worse.

But always when I'm sad I think at my ''Happy-maker''-song.

Das Leben ist wunder, wunder, wunderschön
Das Leben ist wunder, wunder, wunderschön
usw.

You've got to sing it so many times, till you feel happy. When I sing it I'm getting happy;) I know it.
Cause I've got depressions. But when I hear sunny day or some other amazing songs from Sunrise Avenue I feel just happy. At a very hard day for me, I try to kill me. But then I've heard ''Sunny Day''. I've done nothing to myself and I felt happy. Cause I reliced, that everybody got bad days. And it's just nature. Like the sunny days:)

So I hope you're not to tired from reading;) Wish you all a sunny day...

Anki